First day doing Yoga

I did yoga for the first day in a long long long time. Hm, something like more than 32 years, but wait, no I have done some yoga before, it was a bit of Kundulini yoga with Lana. This was Ashtanga/Mysore. I am about to go to bed so that I'll be able to get up in the morning early enough to go to the Mysore session tomorrow. I want to get my money's worth as quickly as possible. End of next week I feel like I'll probably have it all together.

For the yoga I wrote a cheque that went into my line of credit. I knew I could do that safely, and I should have money in there on Friday so, it may not even go into my line of credit.

The yoga was great. Mysore is a self paced group practice. I did the two sun salutations and 6 standing postures. And something at the end. I forgot that bit. I remember the corpse pose, and another pose that I really don't have the strength to do. The practice was really intense. I don't think I hydrated enough today, and really think I need to work more on that if I'm going to be doing this practice regularly.

The whole trans stuff came up. I can't wear anything which is tight in that area without showing. I know some people have found ways around this. That seems even more uncomfortable than just putting some kind of pants on. And that has been a real stretch for me.

I'm doing the Yoga at Shanti Yoga which is just around the corner from where I live. I'm about half way between Shanti, and the Shambhala Centre. A little closer to the Shambhala Centre. That is maybe a bit revealing. Still, I haven't had problems that I couldn't handle. And even those were mostly self inflicted for the most part.

That is probably what I want to say. I saw Kathy who is seeing me while P'Nina is away. That has been really good. Though P'Nina tends to challange me more. Robin challanges me the most. But then the proffesional relationship with Robin is ending (well even though it's not technically ended yet, probably practically has). My feeling about why she is the one that challanges me the most is because she isn't afraid to form a personal relationship, and that actually worked out well for me. We had a dual (at least) relationship, and while some schools of counselling suggest that dual relationships are troublesome, I feel that honest setting of boundries between the various relationships that you do have, and work with them effectively.

I think that's also another thing, when I talk with Robin about tonglen, she knows what I'm talking about, and well less so, when I talk to her about the DBT stuff, she also knows what I'm talking about. The major areas of my life she intersects with well. I can think of a few other people who that is true of also.

Well, I guess it's time for me to take my meds, and curl up in bed. Get 5 or so hours of sleep. That would be better than last night I think.

Jessica