I did the Shambhala Training Level II this weekend. It was really good I tried to be vegetarian, but as usual if food is offered to me, I take it. It wasn't even very good. But I ate it, and I was already in a state of having over eaten. This is typical of me and my compulsive overeating. It's not *big*, but it doesn't have to be big all the time for there to be a really negative process. So, I did that. I over ate. I was aware I was overeating. I was aware I was going off my desire to be vegetarian that meal, but I went ahead and did it. I wanted to not do it. Still I did it. My dad knew I didn't want it, but he kept offering it to me. It was pretty rediculous actually.
After we ate, I went to the centre, and then pretty much spent my whole weekend there. I stayed with Margaret and Russ, and that was really nice. They have a really nice house, and they are great people. On Saturday I ate at the Thai restaraunt in Nelson on Victoria and Josephine, and well I realised that maybe I don't want to eat there any more.
Why would I want to not eat somewhere that the food and atmosphere is really good, and I really enjoy it? Is it because there are no vegetarian options? Nope, a great deal of vegetarian options. Portions too large? Not really, they are larger than I would like yes, but that's true just about anywhere I go. The real reason? The bathroom is grungy. It's dirty. If they don't keep the bathroom clean, how am I suposed to be confident that the food is actually prepared by food safe standards? I can't. While I haven't got sick eating there, I'm not sure that I want to continue going there. The bathroom smelled like someone had pissed on the floor, and it hadn't been cleaned up. But I had to go to the bathroom, so I went, and I enjoyed my meal. I may try again some time, but both times that I've gone the bathroom has been discusting. So, well the food is great, but it seems I need to go to the bathroom every time I go there, so well I actually expect to have the same experience next time I'm there.
Ah, what else? I think that's about it. Came home early this morning. Well left Nelson early this morning. Got here about 10:00. It took over 3 hours to get here. Not a huge deal. I enjoyed the trip back. But once I got to Rossland I just wanted to turn around and go back to Nelson. I don't want to live in Rossland. But I don't want to spend 2/3 of my income on housing.
Jigme Datse
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Hi Jessica - It seems strange not seeing you around the college, the centre . . . . how is your life in Rossland unfolding? Is it kind of nice to have people to live with and structure your time a bit? Do you miss the learning at the college?
I'm glad Level 11 was good for you. I think it is one of the most important levels.
warm wishes for hte holiday Jessica, Robin
Robin,
I'll probably send you an email. We haven't talked in a while. I've seen you briefly at the centre a couple of times I think. Well, at the centre and ad Oso. It's been hard.
Rossland? It kind of sucks. Seems like a lot of things aren't quite as good at this end of the valley. Mind you, I did get to go see Black Gold, and a Cuban duo since I've got back here, so that's really good.
Nice having other people around to some extent, it's also kind of narrowing what I'm doing, because I am spending much more time at home, and a large percentage of the time that I'm out I am with my parents.
I miss being at the college more than the learning. The social stuff. I'm missing a lot of the social things that I was doing before I moved.
So, that's very briefly what's going on...
Jigme Datse
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