Some things that went on today...

I thought that there wasn't a lot that went on today. I was on a confrence call from 08:00 to 09:30 for the Shambhala Database, and then I went to see P'Nina. That was a good appointment. A lot came up. I realised that I need to work on my skills, and on other stuff as well. And I really plan on doing that. Well, that's the plan right now. I have an appointment on the 1st with a Master's student, who will be seeing me while P'Nina is away. That I hope works out well. I'll see when I see her. I guess in a way, I'm not doing that well right now. It's more of a matter of realising that overall there are a lot of issues that are not getting dealt with, and wanting to deal with them. Not entirely sure that I will be totally present for Weekthun, I know that it depends a lot on how things go with the psychiatrists appointment down in Vancouver. I know by the end of the week, I'll be doing pretty good, it's just that the begining, I may feel pretty spaced out and in need of support. Well, I'm not sure I'll get it there. Maybe it will all be good.

After my appointment with P'Nina a friend, well not sure I would call her a friend, but an aquantance of mine, who considers me to be a friend, came by, was with her from about 10:30, to 13:00, and that was a lot of time to be around this person. She really means well, and not only does she mean well, she means really really really really well. The thing is, she's someone that I find that it's difficult for me to be around, because she is never satisfied that she's giving enough for what she's receiving. I honestly don't know how she gets through the month with the way that she is constantly giveing to people in ways they never expect, and well just in pretty insanely giving. I know I should be really greatful, but I kind of feel hurt that she's willing to sacrifice herself to the extent that she does. In that time, I had some short reprives as she had to go to the bathroom very frequently (was driving me crazy, and I consider how often I go to the bathroom pretty insane, but well, her situation is like an order of magnitude more frequent than I have to go). I *can't* go that frequently.

I saw my doctor, that was good, hadn't seen her in a while. Not sure how long, but it's been a while, and well I guess I should have seen her sooner, but nothing was pressing, and I didn't. She keeps getting on me about going swimming. Well, I washed my bathingsuits today. So, well maybe I'll go. I don't know. I should really get to the pool and go swimming. But I don't know how I'll pay for that. I'll see. That hits another sore point for me. Maybe I should talk to city and see what they think about providing passes for people on dissability. I doubt that idea would go over well. Somehow the city doesn't seem to want to put money into that kind of thing. Putting money into development on the other hand they consider sound fiscal policy. They do I believe give money to some programs, and support affordable housing in some small measure. But from what I've heard, there is *one* place in Nelson that is affordable housing available to anyone. Everything else has a limited scope.

Now, I seem to be rambling. I then had lunch, nothing major, can't eat major in my mind, and still consider it abstenence. I really have pulled close to the line, and I'm sure, I generally eat more than I need to. I guess for me is noticing how unfit I am. I should be able to jog up those stairs before I get to the point of feeling as stressed as I do walking up them at a normal, or possibly slightly slow pace. Well that was yesterday. I do need to work on getting more active though. I didn't go for a walk today. I haven't gone on a proper walk in several days. I should be getting an hour swimming in three days a week. But, I haven't been in the pool for well over a year. Wait, it's been over 2 years I think. That's not good.

Well, I got to Rossland, my parents picked me up. My dad installed a countertop by my window. That will be a great place for me to do my food prep now. Of course, it's going to get cluttered. But it's probably going to be food and cooking clutter almost exclusively, so that's good. I lost my radiator that I would put hot things on. Still, I think I'll get a couple of trivits, and see how that goes. That should do it. And I rarely have more than 2 hot things at the same time, so well even two is pretty rare, a couple of trivits would probably do me.

Well, to bed now I think.

Jessica